WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A T/G

I

was born effeminate , I had no say in it .Mum wanted a boy and dad wanted a girl and they got me .I had to live with it whether I liked it or not . I wasn't very popular .

As I grew older , kids would ask "are you a boy or a girl" . People would give a smirking smile as if to say " what a weird child ".

At school I was bullied by the other kids and the teachers also . They decided I was a nancy boy .

School was a nightmare and I hated it , I just didn't fit in .

This is the world I grew up in and it was seriously distressing and hurtful for me but over time , I learnt to cope with it .

I drew back inside myself and kept my distance . I became reclusive and morose .

My father left home when Mom was carrying me . His girl friend was pregnant by him .

Mom left home to live with her boy friend when I was six years old .

I was raised by my maternal grand mother.

In later life they discovered I was immature as well . I have the mind set of a 12 year old . I never grew up .

I spent ten months at a special Hospice for treatment . I came out worse than when I went in .

It was when I started work at 14 , that I realised I was not a homosexual , most thought I was but I am bi-sexual .

I also realised I was as smart as the men I worked with and I was just as strong and had stamina .

I worked on the roads laying asphalt . It was hard graft but I coped easily .

They put me on the heavy gang and I earned good money . Surprisingly I got on well with my work mates.

At last I began to feel that I fitted in . I enjoyed working the roads , it was a good time for me .

I now knew I was as good as any one and I never looked back . I went on to gain diplomas in the wine trade .

Later I worked for a funeral directors and became a fully qualified embalmer .

Now in my twilight years , I have a good pension and life is comfortable . I never married , I was too busy having fun .

I wasted a fortune but wherever I worked I became successful .

I ended my working days in a supermarket , working on the Delhi counter along side the girls who I came to love .

I had a good life with money in pocket and a couldn't care less attitude .

In short I am a girl in a mans body and I have grown proud of that .

I am happy now . take care and be good . Love and cuddles